C: I'm tired of icky depressing journals on my front page, aren't you? It's an eye sore. And some of those pictures could do to go to but... haha. ;D

I'm working, really, I am. Considering looking more into traditional art. Does anyone know if colleges have a preference when it comes to portfolios? C:

you love me~ OH~ ;D

...Yeah I know none of you listen to the kooks.

So, you might think I've been slacking. But that's a lie. I just never post things on DA.... which may be a form of slacking.

I'm pretty into INTENSE IMPROVING right now. ;D My current study is THE EYE and how to make it look LESS FLAT. Someday I hope to be worthy of having fans.

...Because looking back at everything I've ever done here... I wouldn't blame you all for hating me if you do. It's always been pageviews and who's popular and who's winning contests and that's stupid. I should be drawing and improving because it's what I love to do and it's what I need to do and because maybe someday I will have FANS who might CARE ABOUT ME. ;D

...makes me think back to my debut on FF.net way back when. I had some people who were really into my writing and I let them down all the time. ;[ Broke all my promises and didn't try my hardest... You guys, any fans I may have or may someday have... You deserve better than that.

And so I've apologized for having been 12 at one point and hope to grow up. ;D FIGHTO. <3

where you suddenly feel like you know what you're going to do with the rest of your life? I know I have one hundred different story ideas I'll never write... but I think I'm actually going to get into video games. Seriously.

I was just watching that dying guy's lecture. Randy Pausch. And I keep thinking about all the people around me who tell me I should make video games... (Well, half of them were trying to recruit me to work on their team as the artist...(sadly, unprofessional people. If I had a professional offer I'd jump for it. Haha.)) ...and then I have the resources. I have a million ideas, and I'm an artist and my girlfriend's an artist and my best friend's an artist, and my father's a programmer and my brother's a programmer and this person I admire and have contact with is a programmer... and all of these people are encouraging me to just walk up to them one day and say "I have an idea, let's get started."

So that's what I'm doing. I mean, it's not like I've never thought about it before. I have three well drawn out ideas because it's always sort of been in the back of my head. Right now, I'm working on concept sketches that my advisor (read : my only friend who's online right now) said would be the best game out of my ideas.

...so don't expect to see any games with Alee as the art team leader any time soon. :[ But someday. Someday you'll pick up a box and it'll be there, in tiny letters on the back of the box in the credits area, or in the manual you don't read. It'll be there.

Yeah so you probably noticed that I updated after a verrry long period of absence. .-. To be honest, that's not even half the stuff I drew during this time period. xDD That's just the stuff I think looks semi-ok.

Yeah so I've gotten into digital painting lately. c: Jen denies it's painting in any way, but if you ask me, it is. D< Lineless is pretty hard. Mostly just the nose. The nose gets me. And bows and ties and other stuff...

(maybe I suck at painting?)

...also I found an oekaki. I mean, one that I like. xD But I won't share with you kittens because then you'll go there and it won't be a nice small community like I like. :c

...still no new comicide. I'm not sure if I'll give up yet. I have some ideas for new comics and I think I could draw it a little better... except Jen gets all insulted because most of my ideas don't involve her persona. :/ [it's not my faulltttt...]

'Cause I'm pretty tired of looking at the last one, and it's been literally a month since a textual update. (well, june 23 - july 22. pretty close.)

Isn't it sort of funny that on your little homepage the buttons around "update journal" are all shopping...? Well, some brainfood for you there.

I haven't started working on the next comicide yet. Haha. I'm not really in a drawing mood right now. But I still hope the next one will be better. Or at least cuter.

I want to find a new oekaki. Yeah, my pchat days are drawing thin and I want to find a nice solid community of biased people who only archive their friends. (Haha, too bad Hound Oekaki went down. Even though I didn't draw furries like most of them, they were a lot nicer to me than most oekakis.) At least I'll be able to understand the praise better. :]

Bye-bee~